When I'm up at 3 AM.

It's 3:30 in the morning, and I can't sleep at all. This doesn't happen often to me, but when it happens it keeps me up forever.

My mind runs crazy as I think of everything I have to do, not only tomorrow, but over the next 2 months.

I've been thinking a lot about last summer, and how we always took time out of the morning and drank tea and got into the Word first thing, no matter what. I remember how good it was for me. And I know in my head that it is good for me.

But I don't do it.

Sure, we always end our days with the Psalms, but I rarely begin my day first thing in the Word.

Being married is blowing my mind. Sometimes Heather and I look at eachother and we're like, "We're married! Whoa! Woo hoo!" We have this outrageous accent thing going on. It really is ridiculous. But I've found it infiltrating my conversations with other people. Like, the other day I was talking to a pastor on the phone and I started the talk saying "hello" in a bad Russian accent. It's all Heather's fault.

I left a message on a pastor's machine last week, and nearly ended it saying, "On Jesus name I pray, Amen." Luckily, I caught myself.

Check out ECHO sometime. Educational Concerns for Hunger Organization. They're based in Fort Myers and they're good friends of NMSI's. I'd love to spend a lot of time out there before heading out to the field.

Getting the opportunity to speak at this camp in less than two weeks is getting me excited and antsy. I am not ready at all. How do I make this stuff I've been learning over the last year relavant to high schoolers. Will I be talking over their heads? Will they understand but not care? Will they even listen? How do high schoolers work? I'm not that far removed from being one, but I understand them not at all.

Albert Pujols returned tonight for the Cards. But we lost again. And yet, we are still in first. Barely surviving, but still very alive. Will I care about baseball anymore in a couple years?

What about enculturation? Will we relate? Will it matter if we relate? Will anything we do matter? Am I too focused on what we will do? Yes. I am.

Man, that "doing flows out of being" idea sure makes for a great sermon topic. If only I lived it.

If I only lived half the stuff I preach at others.

I want to see Todd tomorrow. I miss that guy so much. Maybe I'll see him tomorrow.

Heather had to use her dad's computer tonight to do some work on Photoshop because we left her computer at home. It's a Windows PC. It crashed on her 4 times before she could get started on her work. Why make the switch to a Mac? Here's why.

Alright, this is enough. It's a good thing few people know this blog exists, it is really terrible right now.

Later guys,
Matt